"I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go."
things arent that bad afterall. maybe i just think too much. i dont deny that we are drifting apart. we dont really communicate much nowadays. only a one minute phone call per day. i miss you alot but i just dont wanna suffocate you. im trying my best to give you the space that you want. i hope that no matter how busy we are you will think of me as much as i think of you.
i think i have come to a point where i dont know what i want in my life anymore. ive been trying so hard to make things right only to go wrong. i thought that i am living my dream...only to realise that its all a lie. im so shagged of having to go thru all these shits over and over again. i never ever meant for things to turn out this way.
but hey, look on the brighter side of life.
my uncle is back from dubai. he bought me Chanel No 5. its not from dubai tho, its from changi airport's tax free. perhaps he couldnt find anything for me in dubai but its the thought that counts, right?
anyway,im at work now. im contented and happy with my job now.
ive got a wonderful partner and a great bunch of nurses in my ward. but im extremely bored now, with only 3 discharges and 0 appointments to make.
ive been going to the tea room from time to time to skive and to find things to munch. im an ugly fat pig..
im counting time to go home and head for my bed. im dead beat, from all the thinking.
all i want is to be happy.
